| I wasn't happy and now I am.
I dig it.
I hope I feel like this tomorrow and the next day and the next and the next and etc.
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| I need to stop worrying about me and everyone else and just think about me for the time being. It's not selfish. I need to take care of myself before I can put myself in another relationship. I'm finished. I will be the one there to drive you home. I will be the one thinking clearly. I will be the one saying, "No. Fucking girls like me is a bad idea." I will be the one holding your hair back. I cannot put myself in anymore negative situations. I cannot fuck up anymore.
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| I've realized that I am exactly where I've always wanted to be. And I think to myself, "Why the hell did I want to be here in the first place?" I am not content. I am consistantly upset. I am 100% alone. Nobody knows where I am. I am in the dark, hidden, screaming at the top of my lungs. Nobody can find me. Addiction, lust, hatred, loneliness. Is this what I always wanted to have? I spill my guts all the time because there's nothing keeping them in me. I speak loudly for someone to hear so that maybe they can help me. I dug a grave for myself. I dug it way too fucking deep.
Everyone else is this fucked up, then why do I feel so alone? I feel like I am complete and total dirt compared to everyone else. I don't know why I feel like dirt, but I do. I feel so below everyone else. I wish I could have someone here with me. Everyone else is, but I can't see that. I have tunnel vision.
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| I am definately down for forgetting the other night.
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| Life is good, despite how everyone else feels. Fuck the haters.
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